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A Sadist's Soliloquy

I have peeled my skin
With each of your blank verses.

My poetry has gone through erosions,
lost pages of memoirs,
Un-remembrance and what else?

Irreversibility never liked me.
Nor did I.

Blood has dripped, once, twice,
May be more?
I never had a scale to fathom what I lost.
Nor did veins apologized, ever.

Veins, oh they know when to let go of you
As color red.

You had a quotient of quality.
I have put myself on either side of balancing machine,
Have weighed myself with my emotions
Perhaps the odd moments against my soul.

Unperturbed you were, you are.
A perfect imbalance I am.
Just like this verse which pleads to be understood.

I leave you with one question except me:
Will you ever kill your shadow to be alone?

Oh nights have the answer still.
I will wait.
I know you won't know for
Dark never wronged black.

SoUmY@

Comments

Jadis said…
'Will you ever kill your shadow to be alone?'

'Dark never wronged black.'

Some of your lines hit so hard. Keep it up. :)
Usha Pisharody said…
I leave you with one question except me:
Will you ever kill your shadow to be alone?


It's these inflections you bring in so unpretentiously that get under the skin for me! Except me!

And this:

You had a quotient of quality.
I have put myself on either side of balancing machine,
Have weighed myself with my emotions
Perhaps the odd moments against my soul.


Amazing sense of balance really when you weigh their expressions, and then tell us the verse is a reflection of that imbalance! The oxymoron-like delivery makes it all the more engaging and amazingly refreshing!

It's got that goosebumpy feeling written all over it, in a poignant way, a relentless way too!
BirdBrain said…
Will you ever kill your shadow to be alone?

Soumya u ve left me wid so many thoughts..
excellent work!Poignance is perennial!

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