Soumya Scribbles...

Your music Brought me to this place Where I don't yearn for the flute To play the reminiscer, Where I don't bear the Pain of angst and despair That my Violins used to Transgress. I was the creator of Those tunes where I injected passion to welcome all , to my parade of prestige. But now its all Too harsh in-front of your Subtle notes, All too incoherent behind Your smiles and giggles. Because I stand in this silent podium Of life , devoid of any glitters, glamours and claps, Realizing the depth of love I have for you , And there I am just too novice to pen a notation. Hold my hand dear So that You teach , I learn and We ripple the silent symphony, that for once and for all melts the Crescendo into Undying refulgence. SoUmY@

Tonight! It will be again Them For whom I will Strip. Put up glowing lipstick, Crimson colors, The ghungroos ; Bangles?? oh! they Are too noisy. And then, Like the way you invite Winter to bare all up Just to let Spring in next, They will do so. Push me where I go Every night. Different faces,same souls. Hungry,Pounding, Confounded in desires and lust. I will take it all. As long as you are there To ask me , "How are you ?" The next morning. Oh! how I love the deceptive Night. Glad I don't have a mirror. How I know how the world is. They never turn up to me In the mornings, except you. Learning it all that 'I' Can't be loved , You ,unpretentiously ,gave me What I dreamt of! And that is what I Loathe. Don't make me dream honey. They are long gone Under the tormented beds of Naked petals. I don't want to feel Purity because Here ,for us , It costs them Five hundred. Door clutches Your next.. SoUmY@

Sometimes in life We rethink a phase When we are done by. Was it destined to Happen only here ? And we ,with our Restrictive calculations Measure the latency : Like as if Moths are to indulge into fire. Its all about romancing that emotion You never knew was inside. But as you did , You care for 'we' Forgetting the effects, Ignoring the age and the hideous 'what if's. Feelings bridge the gaps of two lonesome hearts and You just respond To the call. To name it is to melt the ice that kept the moments frozen. ... Don't you ever. SoUmY@

If it had Only been about appearance, I would have chosen the best brands and accessories and perfumes and make ups to come in-front of you. But what if It had rained that day! Would you have Loved a troubled face ? a messed up me ? I wonder why Love had to be staged when it was only you, Who knew How I am & More importantly How we are. If at all It had no curtains In between. SoUmY@

Beyond the azure sky The first rain awaits Its fall. And down there that blue eyed Boy hopes, He would dilute At the same time with his .. Moments lapse. Then the Drops reunite Whispering one's grief To the other . Who would have thought, Even decadence finds Its solace in Desperate communion! SoUmY@

You give me a White tablet often. White, you say, Your favourite colour. I resonate that to My heart and gulp it down Every night. And you stand assured Pretending a smile , Thinking that I won't know These biochemics would cramp me up, Will stress my nerves Smilingly erasing me to A mental coma. Still I nod And gulp them down In memory of those dreams I saw of us , You promised of us... And kill myself Willingly so that you be Happy , knowing never , That How there would be no tomorrow For you ,after tonight Just like me. "...It was never a revenge dear. Its just the game you played And we lost. Atleast, something together." SoUmY@ P.S.-- The first few lines are borrowed from S.Rukhiya's ''Present..?'' ..Just a different outlook that I tried to manage from the very same context!

I would have loved A nod. Even 'No' Would have been bearable To compromise with Some sleepless nights. But Your compassionate pause Built me a glass wall That was opaque enough To hide my face so that tears could escape Unquestioned. And That was when I started to like the Glass palace around, Because I had to Defy the moments you were in. ... Unaware I fought against me. SoUmY@

Click! And we are captured Into a single page of lamination That holds a hundred others Of memories-- Bitter,sweet, Hurdling,fighting, Laughing,Crying But importantly Together. "Look at her as she smiles" "And look how crazy I was" "Oh you,always flying !" "and Sam ? where is he ?" -- Tons of comments passed on from here and there, As I get my copy of memory And keep it in the diary, That has no dates But a farewell to my friends, Promising nothing, Only a "..will miss you all" to sob me with mine, With tears I didn't know How to shed . As I looked up , I saw in haze some giggling nascent eyes With me , My memory and Them.

The neon lights Create a mystic fog Around the footpaths, As hundreds of faces Enlighten themselves For that brief moment, Passing by the blues,the greens, the fluorescence And smiling a fake smile glittered in naked fashion. On the other way To the dark side of the moon People celebrate success by vodkas and break offs with another sip In the same table, With nuts and guts! Where citylight dares to reach Just a bit. And they laugh at others, and their own fates. As ladies dance their way to Heaven in necropolis Holding on to steely truth, Behind bars! Somewhere in between Lies the scent of the dwellers, Who choose both ways Only alternate days And their souls thrash into Mercedes and Fiats and Marutis. Still they live again As the neons glow With a light that is better put off. And the faces laugh In the fluorescence that reveals plastic To the dark that hides their names. SoUmY@

Tiptoeing through the Darkness as the First glow Reaches us, I come out In that shivering breeze And a blue sky. As I progress with Naked feet, the dew drops die of innocence Comforting ,reminding me Of the last night's tenderness. And I run like a child Willingly leaving all my Burdensome adulthood To the horizon Where you paint a bit of a yellow As if alluring me into it. Happily I reach afar Till I fall short of breath. Panting I return, Promising myself like a teen That I would walk some Extra yards Tomorrow, So that one day I reach where You want me to. Heaven on earth. SoUmY@

Whisper in my ears the anthem of love, For today I feel not welcoming The fear of Snapping the thread yet again. Could we ever Imagine that whimsically Together The bond would only grow mature! "Insane are those who are In love And more so are them Who realize what they are into" You only had told me. Today As I can emote so, An epic of love won't do, A monument would only exaggerate. Proclamation will Defy the magic of silence. So, Being a paraplegic Who played with the icicles Knowing winter isn't going to Last long, I want to build you and me A shade of love And this time... Pray no rains... SoUmY@